Still not dead.

I am
Still alive.

Am I dead?

NOPE.avi

Haven't posted in a little while.

It's my birthday tomorrow. Other than that, go about your lives. If anyone's reading this.

Is anyone reading this?

Is anyone? Or am I just projecting this into the void, into the twisting nether, into the internet?

Flash

So, I need to make a flash video for my RP's final boss battle with the black king. I have no idea what to do to make it like I want. I can has advice plz?

I'm afraid

Here, have a song I wrote about my fears. The things in the ( )s are background singers.

I'm afraid

I'm worried that I'm the dream

I'm worried that I'm the reflection

I'm worried that it will bite me

I'm worried that it wont

I'm worried that when i close my eyes they wont open back up

I'm worried that illl vanish

Every time i blink

I'm afraid that i will die

I'm afraid that i wont

I'm afraid that ill get sick

I'm afraid that ill infect everyone else

I'm afraid that ill survive the apocalypse

I'm afraid that I'm insane

I'm afraid that I'm delirious

I'm afraid that ill vanish when the mirror breaks

I'm worried about our culture

I'm worried about our future

I'm worried about our past

I'm worried about our present

I'm worried about our lives

I'm worried about our deaths

I'm worried about people dying of fright

And sickness and dehydration and starvation

I'm worried about every one of us

I'm worried about me, and you, and our friends and foes

I'm afraid of spiders

I'm afraid of the dark

I'm afraid of the light

I'm afraid of loneliness

And things that go bump in the night

I'm afraid of death

I'm afraid of life

I'm afraid of myself

All my anger, rage, pain

I'm afraid that one day ill snap

And kill someone

I'm afraid that I'm hollow

Not a person or even alive

I'm afraid that I'm the only one sentient

I'm afraid that I'm the only one not sentient

I'm afraid that they're all plotting my demise

I'm afraid that I'm insane

I'm worried about myself, you, everyone

(Everyone)

I'm worried that everyone will die

(Everyone)

I'm worried that everyone wont

(Everyone)

I'm worried that I'm not normal

(Everyone)

And I'm worried that

(Everyone)

All I need

(All I really need)

Is someone to hold me

(Hold me tight)

And tell me

(Tell me)

That it'll be alright

That we'll weather this storm

That this, too, shall pass

(solo)

I'm afraid that it wont

I'm afraid that we cant

I'm afraid that it wont

(AFRAID)

I'm afraid that it wont

(AFRAID)

I'm afraid that we cant

(AFRAID)

I'm afraid that it wont

(AFRAID)

Ever

(AFRAID)

Pass.

(AFRAID)

(solo)

I'm afraid that ill die

I'm afraid that you will

I'm afraid that we will

I'm afraid that everyone will

I'm afraid

(AFRAID)

And I'm worried

(WORRIED)

About religion, politics, the afterlife, corruption

(AFRAID)

Afraid

(AFRAID)

That its all lies

(LIES)

Beautiful lies

(LIES)

That I tell myself

(LIES)

So I can sleep at night.

(LIES)

So we can all sleep at night.

(LIES)

So we can

(LIES)

Maybe survive

(LIES)

This cycle of change

(LIES)

(solo)

I'm afraid

(AFRAID)

That I'm the reflection

(LIES)

That I'm the dream

(AFRAID)

That I'll cease to exist

(LIES)

Or will have never

(AFRAID)

Existed in the first place

(LIES)

I'm afraid

(AFRAID)

That everything

(LIES)

Is just figments of my imagination

(AFRAID)

That you all don't exist

(LIES)

That I don't

(AFRAID)

That the birds don't

(LIES)

That the bats don't

(AFRAID)

That the dogs, and cats, and mice don't

(LIES)

That these things

(AFRAID)

Are all just

(LIES)

Beautiful

(AFRAID)

Untruths

(LIES)

Half truths

(AFRAID)

Lies

(LIES)

That help me sleep

(AFRAID)

But

(LIES)

They don't

(AFRAID)

They don't help me sleep

(LIES)

They aren't beautiful

(AFRAID)

They aren't useful

(LIES)

Or anything

(AFRAID)

Just figments

(LIES)

Of my tortured mind.

(AFRAID)

(AFRAID)

(AFRAID)

(end)

How to explore Kezan

Step one: Get to Uldum, when you haven't done the insane gnome excavators questline.
Step two: Get the katamari quest.
Three: Do the quest, and then swim towards the Maelstrom.
Four: Realize that there is a wall.
Five: Go FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU-

Procrastination

I decided to play my games, right. But I'm not. I'm on forums, and this blog, and just thinking about writing a fan fic. I want to ask what's wrong with me, but I know. I want to get this all squirreled away before I play for who knows how long. I'm going to try to update this every two or three days, if only to let you know that I'm alive. Is anyone even reading this? Somehow I doubt it. This just seems like my soapbox to ramble about whatever I want. Hmm. Well, there's no more use putting it off. Farewell for now.

Waiting

So here I am. Just waiting for. . . something. I'm not sure what, but if it takes a bit longer then I'm going to go to sleep soon. I don't know what, exactly, I'm waiting for. Though I've already said that. Maybe I'm waiting for a rift in the space time continuum to open up and someone to come through. Maybe I'm waiting for updates. Maybe I'm just procrastinating so I have longer before going to school tomorrow, I mean today. Jegus, is it really that late? Yes, yes it is. Now I'm going to sleep. Good night.

Gratuitous long first post

So this is my blog, also known as stuffedAnimal's blog (oh gog why am i doing this). Welcome.

My beliefs: I am basically an atheist. I believe that there may be a higher power, but I remain unconvinced. I require scientific proof, which is hard with religion. I believe that lies are, to put it shortly, bad. I don't really know how to explain it better than that; I don't like lies, either telling or hearing them, though they may be necessary sometimes. I believe that everyone has a right to live happily and free of hunger, pain, and crime. I believe that everyone has a right to sustenance, water, funding, a roof over their heads, and last but not least free speech. People who are actually insane, or acting very crazy, are to be cared for with some tolerance and a bit of love by their relatives. Now I'm imagining an aged hitler in a little pavilion facing a lake glaring at a younger caretaker. The image makes me laugh. Everyone should have a right to life, liberty, intelligence, happiness, and their wants. Lust isn't that bad, it's what got species to reproduce. But when it's used for things like rape, or seduction, or crimes, I think that it's not good either. Most concepts, I think, - freedom, lust, greed, and the like - are primarily nuetral. (Spellcheck says this isn't spelled right. Eff you spellcheck.) Neither good or bad. They aren't things that I think can be.

My fears: I'm worried that people are evil, that I'm alone, and numerous other things that I won't go into right now. Happy thoughts, SA, happy thoughts.

My self: I am currently 14, will turn 15 June Sixth, (I was born 6/6/96) I am a middle class rather chubby white (I like to say I'm mixed, but I'm really closest to white) male living in the USA. Washington, to be specific. No, not DC. I live up near Canada, and you know, they aren't that bad. No one is, imo. But that's another topic. I like to say I'm a cynic, but I'm optimistic at heart. Most of the time. I'm not that social around people I don't know that well, I have long dark hair and glasses, and I usually wear a hat outside my house. It has a few feathers on one side, and the brim is bent down to keep the sun out of my eyes when I walk the 2.1 miles from school to home. I've recently had my wisdom teeth out (this last friday in fact) and I live in a city. Other than that I won't say unless I know you really well - I've told some people, but not many, and only ones I've known and talked to several times at least who have earned my trust. I like most music other than screamo, (I've been told I don't have much taste,) and my current most interest is called Homestuck of MSPaintAdventures fame. (I've heard that there are three kinds of people - ones that like homestuck, ones that have never heard of it, and ones that are only in it for the porn. I am mildly amused by this, and I am both one and three.) I'm bisexual, but leaning more towards girls as of now. I take pride in being strange - it's fun. I like using semi-unusual page spacing, and also jumping from tangent to tangent. If you want to play a game with me, I'm usually on world of warcraft on the Arathor US realm. Send me a pm or something on here beforehand, and I'll chat with you when we're both available. My interests include reading, writing, video games, mythology, japanese (I'm semi fluent, leaning more on the side of NOT AT ALL THANK YOU VERY MUCH), art (I win at drawing dragons but fail at drawing faces), and RPing. I'm not going to RP with you if you don't want, but I will if you do and it's fun. I may give you some pointers if there are some GLARING ERRORS that detract from both your and other's fun. So yeah, send me a pm or email or something and we can talk.

That pretty much covers it, I think. I thought this would be longer at first.

Thanks for reading.